...and I think it never will be.

Sweet meteor
burning bright
Careless in your
downward flight
Burn hot and bright
and full of fire
Till time moves on
and passions tire
Mem'ry still seared
by your trailing wake
Were you captured
oh what I'd take!
Though flesh be scarred
by your heat
The pain would feel
as soft and sweet
Such flame grows short
Your wick not tall
And soon enough
the star must fall

So, my latest video has just been completed and uploaded online. I shot it this weekend, slept for all of an hour in 2 1/2 days and finished it early this morning. I'm gonna go pass out into a coma now.

Enjoy!

Video

My insides all turned to ash, so slow
And blew away as I collapsed, so cold
A black wind took them away from sight
And held the darkness over day that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

I used to be my own protection, but not now
Cause my path has lost direction somehow
A black wind took you away from sight
And held the darkness over day that night

And the clouds above move closer
Looking so dissatisfied
And the ground below grew colder
As they put you down inside
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing

So now you're gone
And I was wrong
I never knew what it was like
To be alone

On a Valentine's Day

----Linkin Park

Since when did I need the excuse of a holiday to tell you I love you with all my heart?

Oh what a week...

The fires have burned my home away
Ashes now are all I taste
Be warned for there'll be hell to pay
For those who came and wrought such waste
Pillars of flame lick the sky
Great smoke clouds fill the air
And though I burn I must not die
I live for what's still there
Searching through the death and fire
I cry hot tears for what we've lost
And though flesh be scarred and muscles tire
We'll rebuild, whate'er the cost

Take me away with you
I can see the clouds in your eyes
And I want to fly too

Let's run till we can run no more
To the edge of the world
And find what's in store

I'll help you build that castle in the sky
Together, I know these dreams
Of ours will never die

Check Heather's band out at their Myspace page if you haven't seen them yet. I've filmed a few of their shows so far, and if you like hard rock, you'll like them a lot.

Thank you, God. My heart is healed, no longer broken.
I know it will still hurt, but that means I am alive and feeling.
It feels good, to feel happy inside again.

I resolve to have resolve.

To not let the demons win.

To keep at bay the hounds of Hell.

Nor fall to selfish whim.

I resolve to have resolve.

To stand fast and stand true.

To dedicate my life to dreams.

As I dedicated it to you.

I resolve to have resolve.

To fear nothing I see.

To fear not above all the loss of love and hope.

I'll just never let it come to be.

As I look back at this year, I see one of the most tumultous, chaotic years of my life. Many will see it as tame,  and in several senses it is. Most things were stable, for most of the time. In truth in fact it was only the last third that brought any real trouble, but what a time that has been. There's no use in going over it again, no benefit can be added by saying more. Suffice to say, "It sucks to be me."

On the brighter side, life is better than it was. I have new resolve, new friends, new outlooks on life. It has been very painful coming to some of those things, and I wish those lessons had never needed to be learned, or at least not in the way they were taught. But I cannot change the past. Only the future. My determination does not waver, nor does my dedication to ALL those whom I love and will ever befriend, protect, and honor. The end of 2006 found me with hope and joy in my heart, full of love, as I have mentioned before. The end of 2007 finds me broken, but with a blue print for a better Byron. The beginning of 2008 shall find me...home. Beyond that...I am anxious to start.